Serendipity … these cards came to my attention after Sunday’s Chair Yoga class … from an affirmation deck by Tosha Silver.
Today is the Full Moon, with a partial Lunar Eclipse … this moon, the Blessing Moon … a time to offer gratitude … a time also to be content with the blessings or results of the work one has done the first 6 months of the year. Not adding more or less, but content with what is.
I over “did” last week & into the weekend. I knew there would be an abundance of work due to a special event (long nights) & teaching on top of that (early mornings).
So now I’m a little under the weather. Sore throat out to the ears, overall tired feeling. And my cycle began a week early, which adds to the exhaustion.
In past years, I would have pushed through … this is my Pitta nature (What is my dosha?)… to keep going despite the warning signs from the body. I’m not choosing to push through this time, & it’s a blow to my ego.
I’m so grateful I don’t have to push through. I have a job & a supervisor that allows flexibility & understands there are days you need to rest & recover. Also, sharing the yoga practices in group classes, people understand if I need a break one day. Not everyone has this flexibility …
And yet, my badge of honor used to be my endurance … & frankly stubbornness. When I used to run & ttrain for marathons, I wasn’t the fastest runner, but I didn’t stop … I paced myself & made my distance & time 95% of the time. As a wilderness guide, I may have been slower at hiking, but I could hike for miles without stopping. At various awesome jobs over the years, I could be the first one in the office & last out … day in & day out.
And I can’t do that anymore. Or I could, but I pay the price in sleep, relationships & overall health.
It still causes me discontent. My ego says, “You SHOULD be able to do this … If you were a good employee/teacher/person, you’d be able to …” Can anyone relate?
So today, this Full Blessing Moon & Lunar Eclipse, I’m reminded to rest in what I already have & who I already am. Contentment.
And maybe it takes some Courage to be Content. To say, “Hey, I’m doing what I’m doing, I’m doing it WELL & with INTENTION, & it is enough.”
What is “enough” in your world? I hope you get a few moments this week to rest in Contentment with that “enough” … To be Courageous & gently but firmly say to your ego, “Hey, what I have / am is enough today, & it is GOOD.”
And maybe take a nap.
This moon cycle’s card from Spirit de la Lune:
Happy Blessing Moon.