44

Changes.

I turned 44 this week. Third graders rushed me at school with open arms — “Happy Birthday, Ms. Engel!” (so sweet) “How old are you?” (wait …)

But that’s what we adults ask kids, right? “Happy Birthday! How old are you? … Ten years old … WOW … Are you having a party? … etc. etc.”

For all the issues I’ve worked through with self-confidence over the years, owning my age hasn’t been one of them. So when a kid asks me how old I am, I answer. I’ve earned every one of those years, by God, & I don’t resist the change in number.

Changes. Resistance.

I also learned on my birthday that the venue of my yoga community for the past 2 years is closing. How do I deal with the resistance to this change?

There were many reasons my yoga mentor prescribed a consistent meditation practice to me last year. Not a physical practice — a sitting practice. I’m discovering another reason now.

So I’m sitting. Letting life live through me. Feeling upside down … yet waiting to see how this side might be better than the side I’m on now.

I’m so grateful for 2+ years in this community of practice. My fellow teachers & I have dedicated ourselves to sharing the yoga practices from our respective yoga traditions, traditions with unbroken lineages for generations. I continue to strive for authenticity in sharing the yoga teachings of the Himalayan Tradition — yoga is deeper than making shapes with bodies — teachings which ultimately manifest healing & one-ness in mind, body & spirit.

Changes. Resistance. Let life live through. Prepare for what is to come.

So, as I begin my 45th circle around the sun, I’ll meet with my yoga teacher & mentor for wisdom, with my fellow Himalayan Institute teachers for support, & enjoy every moment with my community of practice. Immeasurable gratitude to each of you <3.

If you’re interested in beginning or continuing your yoga journey with me, check HERE for class times & venue updates!

What changes are you experiencing? What resistance? How are you letting life live through you, & preparing for what’s to come? I’d love to read more in your comments.